finally my much anticipated long block leave! had my 28 plus km route march yesterday night. walked through the whole night. it was one of the toughest things i have i ever done i swore, people were so tired that they walked into the drain, and people were walking in zig-zag fashion, quite a funny sight but not much to laugh about since we were all so tired. one got sent to hospital because he got heat exhaustion. quite a few fell out. but when we finally reached the top of rambutan hill and got presented our 3rd bar, there was a huge sense of accomplishment. we were so tired, so mentally and physically drained, but somehow knowing we have reached the senior stage of our ocs days, smiles filled our sweat filled faces. the hardest part of the day was probably not the march but seeing our best friend johnathan dragging his duffel bag, leaving bravo wingline. a few of us had tears in our eyes, from that i finally understood why army finds you the best friends in life.

after he left, we went into his room that me ,ivan,danny and rueben used to have nutella, cup noodles, lays potato chips parties, play station games, jumping onto each while the unsuspected victim is on the bed, the common area for the"inner circle" to bitch about some irritating fellows, listening and singing to chasing cars, way back into love, elephant loves medley, come what may and dancing to the song beautiful girls amusing the whole platoon, the room which we punk'd the whole platoon. suddenly all these became part of yesterday. the room suddenly felt empty, and the few of us jus stood there silently for a few minutes...

what lies ahead of us is nothing but a blur.


wish jon all the best in artillery :)


block leave here we come!

it's been quite some time, but somehow, each time when i wanna give up , i always draw strength from our happy timees. maybe my heart jus refuse to let go.

ahh! a lil bit of free time! short week! had my most xiong exercise in service known as esercise spade, where i dug and dug non-stop for 48 hours. no sleep. tired but felt great after the whole thing ended! :) social night on friday, went to mount faber, perfectly romantic place. it was really awesome. i swear. never seen a better view of the whole of singapore from there! it was quite a fun night, could see the dates were all pretty bored though actually but our table was damn fun! we really entertained ourselves!(and i must say ivan and sam are the sweetest sweetest couple though ivan is like a lil boy!hahaha) well my table had the "best dressed couple" johnathan and his childhoood friend( they really look a pair of hollywood couple in their all white suit!), and i swear it was a conspiracy of some sort,plain sabotaging.me and my date won "the cutest couple" . it was so weird coz when we went up the stage, everyone was like staring, seems like scrutininzing and stuff! and the gift was even better, a photo frame! how rich is ocs! after that, some of the us went over to MOS to club. it was really fun, coz we went to 54, and danced to some mambo music!reached home at around 5 plus then woke up at 8 plus to go play sooccer til 3! now i m sunburnt to the core! went with ivan and johnathan for lunch at siglap, such a nice chilling place. later going brew works for drinks with some of my friends and watch a soccer match! supposed to be a long weekend bookout but its still too short! i jus love chilling out at bars,having drinks, crapping with frens. this is THE life! :) next week my service term ends, i feel really sad that one of my good fren,johnathan is leaving for artillery. :( nvm we will have more drinking session together during bookouts!

had a long weekend break! booked out on friday afternoon at 12 plus. it was like super duper rare. was a really tiring week, barely slept more than 4 hours the past few nights. but it was sooo good to come out for so long. at least didnt feel so rush. could hang out with friends, chill!

after book out, went to holland village with some of my platoon mates, went to some of those ambience filled restaurants to have our lunch. seriously the people there all wore suits and had the "i m rich" words scribbled all over their faces. but it was really a nice little street with all those restaurants. it was a place that would certainly be best to bring dates! hahah. had pizza at da paulos ( think that is how u spell it). it was delightful! then we just sit down there, enjoying the afternoon sun, the quiet district with some background jazz music. ordered some desert wine and we jus sat there to chill and talked! it was really good. then went to gastronomia and bought back some cup cakes and other stuff, jus like 4 items cost like 20 bucks! but the food there is really delicious, plus the ambience and all. will go there more often! high life! hehe. thats why must earn more money now! ;)

went out with another long lost fren today to town to shop for stuff! havent met her for ages! we roamed around the whole of town shopping! found this really nice shirt at giordanio concept then decided to wait and shop at other places first but who knew we both got lost and spent 1 hour plus tracing back our steps to find our shop. even resorted to asking pepper lunch staff! oh man hilarious. bought like 140 plus dollars worth of clothes! :) i really spend too much.hahah bought one from giordanio concept, another from calvin klein. yup two for 140 bucks. i m amazed!

some intensive trench digging next week and social night. oh man!

sigh so sad my thailand trip has been cancelled coz one of then going artillery. sigh sigh. nvm, looking forward to block leave! much to do!


I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into loveOh oh oh
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

m now slacking in my bunk waiting for the stupid commissioning parade to end so we can book out! have to wait till like 10 plus la. damn sian. listening to boston makes me feel emo! hahah. quite a nice music video. guess my acjc, yes acjc buddy influenced me to really like jay chou, esp this song btw him and fei yu qing(though i really dun like mr fei) called qian li yuan wai or sth. and i love qing tian. oh man! sth wrong is happening to me! nv tot i will like jay chou songs. hehe



sigh i m really quite sian of ocs. i love my frens and the company though some ppl here are really hard core back stabbers and people who love to boot lick their way up to become a sword of merit. its people like these that make you feel so disgusted. people who were involved in something but chose not to admit afraid of tarnishing their perfect image in front of the officers! REALLY IRKS ME! so in the end since no one wanted to take blame, i took it! i really dun give a damn if i get out of course or get extras, i m jus so sick of tired people shirking their responsibilities and blame and push it to others. since they want to do that, i let them do it! the only thing that keeps me going are my frens like ivan and danny. nothing really matters to me now. m really quite sick of the life of an officer cadet. my fren who was my platoon mate went in army same time as me now has already become a close combat instructor and he is punishing us like some idiots. its true, officer cadets are really currently the lowest life forms, no wonder when officer cadets become officers they become bast**** because during the life of a cadet, no one treats us with any respect at all.


all good things come to an end...lovers to friends, flames to dust

i sleep lesser and lesser each day! haha. jus came back from kushinbo buffet with eunice, cp and shu. birthday celebration for cp and eunice! haha, i have went mad, and all of us were laughing like hell, spilling ribena, dropping chocolate eclair in shoba sauce, spilling shoba sauce! i love shoba!! okay cuppacino makes me high. walking for miles trying to hail a shit ass cab and calling for cab in which they asked me to hold forever. toe nail regenerating after walking. me having a tail. housefly in mouth when you yawn. ahhh!

okay all are super random. anyw, come on my friends! uni is fun! dun fret. hahah. smu should be a school for people who wants to go on diet. and they keep scaring me of the amount of notes i will have to study when i go uni. is it REALLY so bad? :P

i finally found a french teacher!! and he is from france! :) france here i come!!!

i tink i m really high now. no idea why! anyw service term in ocs is ending soon! :) okay movie time for now!!

my whole mentality of life has changed, i am back to the happy go lucky person whom i used to be! :) as i pass by kallang mrt today, i tot of pa, a feeling of nostalgia. i wanna go back there to work again after i ord. it once served happy memories. i m thankful for all my friends that have been with me all these while. i feel blessed! :) thank you!

an inspiration:

good friends are like hot chocolate on a cold winter day. wonderful on first taste, and as it slowly flows down your throat, the feeling of warmth feels you inside. and it stays.