work and all..draining. but got to know tons of ppl. too lazy to blog full. talking gibberish. basically had a busy week. tired. from everything. i need a break. away from everything.

everything.

life.full of little surprises. make fun of u when u least expected it.


something ahead.


take it in your stride. learn.


forest. tree.


choices in life.


dark chocolates. bitter sweet after feeling. leaves u craving for more.


goals. your call.


leave slowly. into the dark. and disappear forever into the night.


gone.

i came back from work feeling all sweaty,tired and dirty and of course before that i had to rush down to recruit express to sign a contract for my job at PAP at kallang.simply hilarious. well this was wat happened. i think i was too kiasu coz i went down to 2 recruit express, one banking and one corporate sector one. in the end both got me the same job and now here is the dilema. i went down to orchard branch first and the consultant there called debbie was actually first to arrange me the job but in the end coz i didnt know i agreed to sign with elisa at the branch at shenton way. and here comes the situation. debbie called and started saying(dun believe me ask shu, she is damn childish the way she act, when me and shu came out we were like wow!) so after a long long phone call with her, i think at least 40 minutes. i had to turn down elisa and went orchard instead. and okay here's the surprise.i went down there, and i swear she gave me the cheekiest grin ever. then okay down to business, 5 minutes into talking the contract, and we were off course. as in it became a chat and all this time i was like wow, this girl is older than me and a consultant so i m like this small little boy listening intently to instructions. then biggest shock, she is 18, and she comes from jjc. then we were talking about jobs, no wonder she needed me to go down so badly coz they had these quota to reach and she was sooo way off. needed like 17 more and i was one to cancel off the numbers. okay stayed inside the room for like 45 minutes, literally chatting like old friends. wow, i m sociable.ha.
okay then back to the worse thing that happened.i swore if i was any muscular i would punch this guy down. we had to work at joel's dad company and all, then he brought along this guy who was a drop out from ACS barker. rich ass snobbish, thick skinned, thick until arrow shoot already will bounce back. oh my gosh he is so so so....arrgh i cant stand him. i swore i havent hated anyone since eons of yrs ago but he is THE ultimate. give an example: his name is called frenchescho(aiya sth like that la)
frenchescho: eh ck( in american accent..plus a bit ah-bengish..rojak style), do u have a girlfriend?
ck: eh nah, dun have one.
frenchie:why dun have?
ck: i dunno?
ck:(normal response qns) so wat abt u ? do u have a girlfriend.
frenchie: i have a few.
ck: (shows the mmm..wow...okay)
frenchie: coz u know i m not the boyfriend kind of guy. i very bad one, get into fights, drink smoke. but my girlfriends some are models one.
ck:( smiles and nods his head in awe!!!!)

situation 2( in recruit express, he forced to tag along to look for job)
frenchie: eh ck how ah, which address should i fill up, i have a few houses.
ck: jus fill up the one you live in la.
frenchie: aiya..nvm i tink i jus fill up my cousin's place
ck: give the hur hur hur laughter.

situation 3
frenchie:eh ck..should i buy psp
ck: eh anything lo..up to you
frenchie: do u have xbox, ps/
ck: ya have an xbox 360 which i barely touched.
frenchie: oh u know i have xbox360 limited edition, xbox limited edition, the clear casing one, blah blah..yada yada...and the list goes on.
ck: hahaha..okay

okay too much and i got no energy to carry on. so ya..basically sums up my day.shall have an early night. tml start work at 830. so yea..first day at work...go PAP!!!

yay! i m finally employed. thats all. and though i know oky cant possibly see this post till 2 weeks later, but all the best for army!! :D
the time is 7.10. and i m stoning in front of the computer waiting for work to start. on a seperate note, i saw a funny joke.
whats the difference btw a coconut and a peanut?
one nut is bigger than the other.
okay it is actually lame. but i m in a semi conscious state now and basically i m jus typing gibberish now. yay!
okay, thats all folks. time to bath!

lost is really so damn good. man!i need to watch wat happened next after episode 6. and kate is like super lucky to have 2 guys willing to sacrifice everything to save her. its like wow.
okay leaving in 15 minutes to go for my interview. wish myself all the best.haha.


if one day u feel like crying,call me. I dont promise that i will make u laugh, but i can cry with u. If one day u want to run away-- dont be afraid to call me. I dont promise to ask u to stop.but i can run with u. If one day u dont want to listen to anyone;call me. I promise to be there for u but also promise to remain quiet. But one day if u call.and there is no answer;come fast to see me. Perhaps i need u.

At the Beginning-Ron & Hermione

i was watching sexy back by justin timberlake, dunno where is the link btw this and sexyback.

recently i have been constantly asking myself, what have i actually completed and achieved in my 18 years of life. and as much as i want to say many things, deep down i know i have done nothing. i told myself before, that when my A's ended, i swear i find a good job in a bank and pays well and work hard towards my goal of earning my first million by 28. and look what i have achieved, a stupid job at toys'rus doing stock taking with a bunch of O'level students who cant make it to jc. sorry if i have insulted any of them but yea,thats how irritated i m with myself.
things that i constantly try to get it right i never ever get it.and hell right,it finally made me start thinking. i have been chasing the wrong things in life all this time, esp the 2 years in jc. things that i know i can never ever get, maybe not in my whole life. i have grown accustomed to the fact, and my sis tells me, dun think this way but come to think of it, i think its the most important factor. so i gave it some thought. maybe its just what my life is gonna be. and i sort of straightened out my thoughts. why go for something so superficial, so unreal. something that changes 24/7.
from now on, that shall be removed from my dictionary...forever maybe. i shall focus all my energy on work and army and university. i shall start by going down tommorow to look for a job at shenton way even if it means going down to many offices. i shall first start with recruit express,banking and legal sevices. i shall work towards my real goal. my ultimate goal. thats where my life will lead me.

Brian Mcfadden & Delta Goodrem - Almost Here

.......wake up to a beautiful sunny morning, and a brand new day awaits.
Dream away everyday
Try so hard to disregard

met up with chris,cp,eu and oky yest. havent seen the "arsehole", chris, for eons. hahha..had a whale of a time at minds, walking to marina square jus to play daytona,bishi bashi and crazy taxi. a pathetic dinner that cost 48 bucks, sotong so small that u needed a magnifying glass, oyster egg so salty that it seemed like it was soaked in the dead sea before serving. stingray dry like constipated shit. and kangkong in such minute amounts that we would probably be better off ordering small to see how much smaller it can get? maybe one stalk. chicken wings in minds cafe that took so long to serve that prompted chris to say, maybe they are waiting for eggs to be laid and maybe they are killing the chicken now. hilarious.

today is the end of the school holidays, school reopens( not that i have any), suddenly feel so much at a loss, because for once,life is really aimless, there is no purpose. nothing to dread every morning when i wake up. taking my nice hot bath at 645 when i m freezing from my damn cold aircon(even now the air con is not cold anymore). making a 50m dash to the bus stop at exactly 710 so that i will catch my bus. boarding 13 and hoping mr chow dun see me so that i dun get another relentless nagging from him regarding house com. reaching school when everyone is going for assembly. standing in the confusing assembly lines which have seemed to erode with every single day. listening to the boring announcements, yet inside hoping that assembly will still drag longer coz u didnt want lessons to come. dragging ur heavy feet to the classrooms. making urself sit as far as possible away from the teacher so that u might be able to catch some sleep or talk to the person beside u when things get so dry and boring. sound of the bell( supposed to have) which is alws welcomed because at least u get to move ur arse. then our favourite breaks, in which we would rush down to grab noodles preferrably(our staple diet)and smiling at the noodle shop aunty who is super nice and she compliments by calling u xiao cute cute.( not that its worth a mention) gossiping during breaks, doing pull ups. bell rings again. once again drag ur heavy feet and now stomach to lecture halls, making a rest stop at the bookshop to grab newpaper and sweets so that u would be attentive in lectures.along the way wave to some ppl u know. in the lecture hall, ur sweets get passed around till u are left with one strand of sour power but its more of funny than anything else.( in primary school u would fight till they puke out everything and get ur semi liquid sweets back) bell rings again. u come out of the lecture hall feeling so fulfilled. not that u have learned anything from the lecturer but from ur frens who have updated u about all the newest gossips in school. u feel enriched. then now asking around from those ppl who have copied the lecture notes. normally from the girls coz their handwriting are more eligible. lunch break. going to weekly 7-11 outings on monday. buying cup noodles, milk, orange-SACS,talking at the top of our voice whether we wanted sacs, and lotsa little tidbits like cuttlefish, to spill on the floor upon opening to feed the ants. its the best day of the week for those little micro-organisms living on the 7-11 floor. but sometimes, not willing to lose all of it, the occasional urge to pick all of it up and leaving the ants dangling with anticipation that maybe some crumbs might drop. the long walk back to school under the hot sun.
the friday outings to pizza hut, eating to our hearts content and playing truth or dare in which i alws happen to lose and do stupid dares like asking for a random girl's name. then the short journey home, looking out of the bus window, dazed in thoughts, listening to the mp3 player playing the same song over and over.
thats life in jc. well for my class. and yes, a little part of me inside miss school even though on somedays, the stress can prove to be unbearable, with cca's and stuff. but i think it was all worth it.

there are days in life when you look back and savour moments, but waste no time cause memories alws remain as a part of you but time doesnt.

Where you are seems to be
As far as an eternity
Outstretched arms open hearts
And if it never ends then when do we start?
I’ll never leave you behind
Or treat you unkind
I know you understand
And with a tear in my eye
Give me the sweetest goodbye
That I ever did receive
Pushing forward and arching back
Bring me closer to heart attack
Say goodbye and just fly away
When you comeback
I have some things to say
How does it feel to know you never have to be alone
When you get home
There must be someplace here that only you and I could go
So I can show you how i
Dream away everyday
Try so hard to disregard
The rhythm of the rain that drops
And coincides with the beating of my heart
I’ll never leave you behind
Or treat you unkind
I know you understand
And with a tear in my eye
Give me the sweetest goodbye
That I ever did receive
Pushing forward and arching back
Bring me closer to heart attack
Say goodbye and just fly away
When you comebackI have some things to say
How does it feel to know you never have to be alone
When you get home
There must be someplace here that only you and I could go
So I can show you how I feel

fireworks can light up one's heart..but once its over..the sense of darkness and emptiness fills the air...gone is that beautiful glow..gone is that moment of smile on everyone's face...in our desperate attempt to relieve the experience, we always overlook the simplest things around us.