home sweet home finally! after 3 weeks in hell hole, it just felt so good to be able to step out and see civilisation. see REAL people. felt in touch with reality finALLY. the feeling of getting out of that place is just so good! everyday in there was filled with endless boring lectures, and millions of physical training. sometimes you just get so tired and you really want to give up. there was a point of time i even asked myself, " why do i want to go through all these". but i guess i just moved on. the regimentation is atrocious but i shant write more in case i get sued for writing about army stuff. the com there is like redundant, coz i cant blog, cant access blogs. CANT PLAY GAMES, and many more. there are many things i wanna do!! i stil have transformers, harry potter and a lot more movies i wanna watch!! but no time :( and after coming out, i seem to have this compulsive urge to splurge! hehe. jus feel like buying redundant stuff. but i shall control, shall first treat my family to a NICE meal tml with my first pay!! acid bar acid bar! okay i m going a bit mad!
i feel quite lucky to have made a great friend in ocs, ivan tay! it is good if you know u have a friend that can chiong sua with u for 9 months in hell hole.life becomes a lot easier. these 3 weeks was quite fun because we really crapped together a lot! thinking of how to "tekan" recruits next time when we become officers! have tons of ideas! but we both know we wouldnt do that because we are NICE! haha. In there, the people are really quite selfish and arrogant like they think that the whole world belongs to them. i miss times in bmtc where people were jus generally nice and would like have crap talking session everyday. now everyone is so serious and all, kinda bring all the fun out of whats left of army. shall cherish every single minute of civilian life!

now that you are gone, somedays i just keep thinking back. i preserve this valuable piece of our happy memories together. somedays how i wished to see your msg, howi wished i could talk to you like old times. but i no longer have the courage anymore, i no longer dare to wish anymore.how i regretted having let u slipped by. every morning i make a deal, i just wish you will be blessed with a great day. thats all i ask for. i will move on. i promise.