recently i have been constantly asking myself, what have i actually completed and achieved in my 18 years of life. and as much as i want to say many things, deep down i know i have done nothing. i told myself before, that when my A's ended, i swear i find a good job in a bank and pays well and work hard towards my goal of earning my first million by 28. and look what i have achieved, a stupid job at toys'rus doing stock taking with a bunch of O'level students who cant make it to jc. sorry if i have insulted any of them but yea,thats how irritated i m with myself.
things that i constantly try to get it right i never ever get it.and hell right,it finally made me start thinking. i have been chasing the wrong things in life all this time, esp the 2 years in jc. things that i know i can never ever get, maybe not in my whole life. i have grown accustomed to the fact, and my sis tells me, dun think this way but come to think of it, i think its the most important factor. so i gave it some thought. maybe its just what my life is gonna be. and i sort of straightened out my thoughts. why go for something so superficial, so unreal. something that changes 24/7.
from now on, that shall be removed from my dictionary...forever maybe. i shall focus all my energy on work and army and university. i shall start by going down tommorow to look for a job at shenton way even if it means going down to many offices. i shall first start with recruit express,banking and legal sevices. i shall work towards my real goal. my ultimate goal. thats where my life will lead me.