this week is filled with up and downs....jus dunno how to even start. anyw...the o'level results was released on fri...tho i alr had mine last year but still i felt a sense of anxiety...dunno how it came about. then came the feeling of nostalgia...the times that had alr passed...my year 1 days are long over...no more that kind of endless freedom...tHAT kind of loitering ard in canteen chatting with my new found classmates and the outings that never seem to exist but was once there to be cherished. the endless fun of getting to know more ppl from other friends..striking up conversation with random strangers...going out for lunch with friends and ppl i barely i noe...gone are those times. replaced with what is only hours of pure mugging and the toll of homework and stacks of notes waiting there...screaming out to me..."READ ME!! READ ME!! "
my life has reached a new definition...of training and studying. and of course not forgetting the tons of huge responsibilites that is in store for me. i hate to know that my two years of vj life has reached a no mere than tragic and uneventful end. of course there were the happy times but one has to look back and know beautiful memories are there only to stay in one's mind and can never ever be relished again. temporary happiness if u want to call it. just like how fireworks can light up one's heart..but once its over..the sense of darkness and emptiness fills the air...gone is that beautiful glow off the face..gone is that moment of smile off everyone's face...

its times like this that keeps us going on..in search for more happy memories...each never ever-lasting but will leave one lasting impression. live alws with the belief...savour the moment you are in and u will feel that you are living forever in that memory..

anyw...friday we received a bad piece of news that peter cannot stay in vj...he missed by jus barely a point. it came to us as a blow. seriously to say...i dun tink it ever crossed anyone of our mind that he wouldn't stay. all we can do is wish and pray that mr tan can come and give a piece of good news on thur.

what gone can never be retreived back...


song of the week: leann rimmes and ronan keating, last thing on my mind

Four O’clock in the morning
My mind’s filled with a thousand
Thoughts of you
And how you left without warning
But looking back I’m sure you tried toTalk it through
Now I see it so clearly
We’re together but living separate lives
So I wanna tell you
I’m sorryBaby
I can’t find the words
But if I could, then you know I would yeah

CHORUS:No I won’t let go, know what we can be
I won’t watch my life, crashing down on me
Guess I had it all, right there before my eyes
Girl I’m sorry now, you were the last thing on my mind
You carried me like a river
How far we’ve come still surprises me
And now I look in the mirror
Staring back is the manI used to be with you
How I long for you

CHORUS:Girl I’m sorry I was wrong
Could have been thereShould’ve been so strong, so I’m sorry
CHORUS: (repeat)